Future for Thought

I'm gonna be having a mid term exam in 6 hours time... but yet I'm blogging, man, I just love myself... haha. So I went to the supermarket this morning to get some milk for my breakfast. And guess what?? All I saw along the whole row of 'Dutch Lady' milk.... was a stretch of PINK!!


So today ended up being the very first time in my life... I had a bowl of Kellogg's Cornflakes with STRAWBERRY MILK!!! XO

A Bowl of Cornflakes in Strawberry Milk....

How gay...

On another note... the Semester is coming to an end.... in like... 2 months time O_O and I'm getting closer and closer to that uncertain and pitch black future of mine. As some of you may already know, I have of not the slightest most faintest minuscule idea whatsoever of what lies in store for me once I finish my studies...

Work? Sheez, I despise work... especially office jobs. I can NOT imagine.... sitting at a cubicle, 8 hours a day, wasting my life to the air-conditioners and paperwork around me. What would be my contribution to the society?? What would be my motive?? I would seriously lose track of all that.

There are Soo SOO SOoooOoo MANY jobs out there.... and in fact, I'm pretty versatile... that I believe I could do anything from being a Pâtissier (that's something like a bakery chef), to being a wandering Photographer, and I don't think I will feel bored.... anything BUT the dreadful Office. I can't help but wonder how some people manage to drag themselves to the office every 8 in the morning, and drag themselves home later at 5 in the evening.... on a DAILY Basis...

However, in the end, I guess we all still come down to one very important thing to consider.... the Tunku Abdul Rahmans.... in other words.... the Paycheck =.=".....

Hell, I don't mind being a construction site worker if they gave me a paycheck as fat as the one sitting in the office gave me; Neither would I mind dealing in drugs, but then I have the Law to worry about, and the thought of ruining someone else's life is abit.... pitiful, so that might be out of the question; or if things couldn't go worse.... you could always turn south and provide services for.... uh.... erm.... for.... *ahem*... yea, that's the one... but to me that's a long throw of my pride and dignity, I don't see that happening anytime within the realm of a hundred years to me.

It's not that I'm obsessed with money... but all I want is, to be able to live a comfortable, if not luxurious, life, where I won't have to worry about balancing my accounts just to pay the water bill next month. But at the same time.... be able to do the things I want to.... and buy the things I want, and enjoy living a life that I love.

The Future eh?.... Right now it's still a pitch black for me.... There may be monsters.... yet....

*Sigh* "I want a Time Machine..."

John Titor & Time Travel

**UPDATE (14th Nov 2010): It seems the links to photos/images to this post have mostly been taken down or the site gone inactive. Sorry about that, if anybody still reads this post. If I have the time and mood, which I rarely do =( I'll try to re-up or find backup images for it. If not, just too bad then.


I guess you guys have watched Time Travel movies since you were kids right? You go like "Whoa~! That is SOoo KEewl man... To be able to go back in time and save the world." Or think of stuff like "Wouldn't it be nice if I could see my future/past self, or even shake hands with him/her/myself?" It seems, that these things may not be very far from reality actually.


Just a month or two ago though, I actually thought about this question. "Is Time Travel possible?" And after some serious considerations, analysis, and theories I thought about, I concluded that it wasn't. However, it seems I only considered a "Serial Timeline" Theory, and overlooked the possibility of another method of Existence for our world.

Okay, I found this information a few days ago whilst having exams, thanks to a prompt from a friend while chatting over lunch.... and instead of studying, I spent my day learning about this guy John Titor and about Time Travelling. Anyway, I'm gonna present my summary of 5 hours research on him here.


Before I start, I'll give a word of Warning:

********** ~Very Long and Confusing Post ahead~

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Content below might contain heavy 'nonsensical' discussion on Time Travelling and multiple hard to imagine concepts also. You might want to consider to NOT continue reading if you do not wish to boggle your mind with weird concepts and stuff, or if you just do not have any interest in Time Travel whatsoever.

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If you're still with me. Then, prepare to be mystified.

So, the story goes that there is this guy named John Titor, who made his appearance in year 2000 ~ 2001 and claims to be a Time Traveler (I'll use TT-er from now on) from the year 2036. John appears to be a military personnel, on a mission, to go back to the year 1975, and retrieve an IBM computer UNIX 5100. This was one of the first portable computers created by IBM, and this model, unlike the rest, contained a simple but unique feature in it. However, the feature during that time did not seem to have much use, and so IBM dropped the feature in their newer computer models, leaving all of today's computer without that feature.

But in year 2036, scientists realised that the feature in that IBM computer would be the only thing that could prevent a worldwide freeze of their computers in the year 2038, which would happen due to technical issues I'll not mention here. (much like the our year 2000 Y2K problem).

He appeared in 1975 with a Time Machine loaded on a Chevvy. It is said that the Chevvy would be less obvious at that time. After his mission though, he stopped by the year 1999~2001 for personal reasons and lived with his "family" (His real self was only 2~3 years old at that time). He managed to convince his family that it was his future self, and stayed with them. And during that time, he actually made an appearance on the internet, firstly nicknamed "TimeTravel_0" on multiple chat logs. And later laid claim to the name "John Titor".

He later returned to his year 2036 sometime around End of March or early April 2001, but this time in a 1987 4-wheeled-

Of course, there were few people who believed him. The skeptics tried to expose his hoax, and the gullible took it all for real and listened to his stories.
As for me... ... am for now still unsure whether this can be true of false.

However, even if he was a hoax. He actually left behind many theories and concepts for time travel that no one else actually thought about. He explained, to a limit, how his time machine worked, and even posted parts of the operation manual (don't ask me "What for?").


All this while, MY concept of Time Travel, was travelling along a "Serial Timeline". A serial timeline means..... only a single timeline exists. And for the next event to occur, the event before that HAS to have happened.... or so to say... something like this picture.

This is what a Serial Timeline would look like. And after a couple of days and hours considering how traversing through a serial timeline would be possible, I came to the conclusion that: It was Impossible.

John Titor however, IF he were a real TT-er, stated that even though it's called Time Travelling, it still obeys the final rules of 'Time'. That is, "Time and Tide waits for No Man".

**Assuming John was a REAL TT-er**

John explained Time Travel as traveling across Multiple "Parallel Worlds", each world having it's own "Worldline". Meaning to say. There are INFINITE versions of the world today, all 'running' at the same time. He also stated that "Every possible outcome, event and possibility is happening and will happen". Meaning to say... in each of those Infinite Worlds, there is a 'Me', a 'You' and 'Everybody else' in that universe, doing nearly the same or perfectly different things.

"Parallel Worldlines" Concept
This isn't talking about TimeTravel though, it's just an example.

In the other worlds, as he said, every possible outcome will happen, maybe, in this world, you chose to drink Coffee this morning; in the other world your other 'you' chose to drink Tea instead. Another more accurate example: The 'You' in this world decided to punch your friend for stealing from you; whereas in the other world 'you' decided to forgive him instead. These list of possibilities though, are all tied down by one thing only. And that is the each and every person's personality and choices.

In that manner, it is frustrating to know that you are capable of and acting on all of the thoughts and ideas you have regardless of what the “you” HERE in this worldine is doing. How good or evil do you think you can be?

He even said that there's a specific study with supportive physics evidence that the our Dreams, deja vu phenomenons, memories, intuitions, subconsciousness are all part of the other 'you's trying to communicate with each other. Now THAT would be cool wouldn't it 0.0


But the "Parallel Worldlines" concept also meant that each world is a separate entity from each other. So even if a TT-er travels 'back' in time, and kills his younger self, it will only affect the worldline of his younger self's, and not the worldline he is from. This is also because of the universal law of Time. That is.... Time doesn't go back. So we still can't change history with a Time Machine.


And this is how the intertwining worldlines would look like in God's Eyes.

I guess that's how you could say the world looks like if you could see every single dimension as a thin line.


**Seems like my post is getting a bit long, so I won't go explanation of how he mentioned his time machine works, since it's got to do with Quantum Gravitational Physics and Micro-singularities, black holes and space-man stuff.... I won't know what I'm talking about by then either.


Anyway.... the point of my post wasn't to argue whether John Titor was a fake or not, or whether we could time travel or not, or even whether his explained theory of time travel was correct or not (but if he WAS a real TT-er, it must've been correct lol). Even though the so-called Time Traveler John Titor had 'gone back' to his year 2036 in the year 2001, till today, people still ask about him, research about him, and intelligence agencies still remain hunting for traces of him. Whether he's a fake or not... I'm not really concerned actually.

But after this guy's appearance, researches are actually now being carried out on his 'rumoured' theories relevant to time travel (it's called the String Theory btw, in case any of you nutcases are wondering what theory it is). This theory didn't exist until AFTER he mentioned it in year 2001, and is still an ongoing research until today.

And my point is, whether time travel is real or not... this guy actually managed to bring Hope into the world. Living in a world where time is never enough, where people bustle about only minding their own business, this person brought about a Plan, a Concept, an Idea, and that is the possibility of Time Travel.


Whereas he might have been a hoax that was an 18 year old teen who sat behind a 17" Plasma LCD monitor all day to think up of such nonsense; or some prison break criminal hiding in a cyber cafe... he still brought about a change in our world. And whether you know it or not, it certainly made a change in our worldline.


Oh, and the final thing I learnt through this is
Time never flows back. Not even a Time Machine can save you.

5 Years From Now

Life in Miri has been somewhat boring so far..... though things DO happen once in a while.... like people killing people, people robbing people.... and what more...... I have no idea right now.

But 5 years from now..... things might be very different for every each and every one of us.






One day.... you might just walk past and see:

That your friends aren't the way they used to be....

And some change in turn to reveal a different side of them, something less seen by the common.

Some friends get what they've always craved for.....

And so you work hard...... and you get this too:

But wait...

Some managed to get on "Bigger" places, by trying the things they always wished to do.

While some are inspired to inspire others.

And some... ...... ...... turn into exhibition pieces.




But then again..... you look around....







And all of the sudden...







You come to find out that

It's all....

Just around the corner.





five years from now

As we grow older...

This post might be a bit odd as my first actual post coming back to KK, but anyway....

Once again, I couldn't sleep. My mind just seems to be to active at the wrong times of the day, so I ended up here again, typing my thoughts into this computer, and up onto my blog, which I didn't really want to at first, cause I felt it was a little awkward, but anyway, here it is....

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1 week... I've been back for slightly more than a week. Yet all too soon, I've already felt.... something that I didn't want to. Even if it's just a week, I felt that somehow..... with my friends.... everyone... each other.... have somehow started to grow apart.

I remember back in high school, there were times, when all of us would know what Steam would buy for breakfast; what Amos's math marks were; what was CKCham's favourite phrase of the day; what was the height of our classmates; where the girls would usually sit and eat; what would be the topic for that day..... and so on.....

Yet now, even as we talk to each other, there's so many things that we don't know anymore. As we live in different parts of the world, as we busy ourselves with our own business these days, even with the best technology in this world.... it seems we're all slowly growing apart.


As we grow older, there will be things.... that will naturally disappear.... Things that we no longer have to do, while other things that we will start to do; there will be more and more troublesome things, things that we just wave off with a sentace of "I'm busy", or "that's a waste of time", or "we'll do that next time", or some sort.....

In another few years.... we might not ever be able to do the same things we could do last time.... or even now....

And all those worthless things we did, the stupid quarrels we had, all the time we had together.... now turning into memories.... precious memories..... I really never would've thought it would be like this back then.
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Graduation

I see people saying how happy they are to have graduated; I read messages and posts saying they're finally taking a new step in life. However, seeing all this, just reminds me, of the same me back then.


To graduate, most people would take it as a good news, a happy thing. It's like one of those things you can say "FINALLY!!". Well, I admit that I was no different, I heaved the sigh "finally..." under my breath. But having said this, what does it mean to graduate?

Hmm, I personally still haven't realised what it means to have graduated. But I sure do know now what it is to not have graduated. I also found out, that there are many things, that will never be the same once out of high school.

Sometimes, I wonder if I could go back to the past, go back to before I graduated, do things that I regret not doing, or doing things that I never did before. Besides that, I wanna experience everything all over again..... it's just so...... nostalgic in a sense.



What do YOU think about graduating?? Feel free to post answers.

Past, Present, Future...

Are you a person who lives in the Past? Do you live a life ever-chasing a future? Or are you the normal person of today? Personally, I hadn't realised these aspects of life until just recently, when something stupid happened to me.

On tuesday, I had my first subject, Management 100. And as I was going out, I couldn't find my house keys, so I assumed I accidentally left them downstairs the night before. So I took my bags and books and all, headed downstairs, only to find that that wasn't the case.

And when I went back up, I turned the door knob, and I go "Shucks!". I'd left my keys in my room. So I went to campus without my keys.


The funny thing is (and also a good thing I assume), even during such a troublesome situation, I can still manage to forget about it and end up dreaming of the future, "What will I do when I arrive back in KK? What am I gonna do next year? What do I wanna be in 5 years time?" These sort of thoughts usually keep me entertained when I'm bored.

So, that very Tuesday when I locked myself out, I was dreaming about a couple of years later during my exam free time. "I think if I were someone else, they'd be worrying about how to go back home and open their room door.", that was what I thought.


From this, I realised that most of my time..... I think about the future, about what could happen, is going to happen, will happen.... what is there for me, how good it would be if I could be this, this, this... that, that....

Or if not in the future, I'd be dwelling in the past, wondering if I could've done better, what better things I could have done in the past, re-calling the fun and joy of the past memories. I'll always treasure them.... now and forever.

And when I finally set my mind to think about the present, the only thing I worry most about is my stomach. "growl...." is the sound it makes every 2 and a half hours.... I seem to have a very strong need for food lately. If I tried to force myself past 4 hours, I'd be so hungry I'd have to hibernate (sleep, in other words).


So, do you worry about your future? Are you tied down by your past? Or all you do is worry for the exams?


p/s: In the end, I had to climb a wall somewhere around the back alleyway and walk across the rooftop of 3 houses like some daylight shinobi to get to my room window (my room is on the 2nd floor).