Thank you so very very much Santa...

Christmas comes every once in a year.... the festival of giving and sharing....
This year, was no different. Or at least I thought it was no different.


I don't know why, but I've been so crazy about getting a camera lately.... It just bugged me sooooo soOOOoo soo much! It's been quite a long time since I last felt like that. However.... money always proved to be a problem for everything I wanted. Even this time.

After some eye distorting browsing all over the internet.... some advice here and there, blar and blar.... I finally came to my choice, an RM2000++ Nikon DSLR D60:



Anyway, my wish was that.... I could get it before New Year. Though it seemed literally impossible.... I still wished.... So that I could take as many pictures as I wanted on New Year itself.... and at least capture as many memories as I could before everybody started leaving next year... and create as many memories before I ended my teens.....

I was about to give up hope on it, that I won't be able to get it before New Year.

And as a last desperate measure.... I turned to my mom. And so unexpected to me as it seemed... plus the situation that we're now in.... she decided to help me make my wish come true.


I really am at a lost of words of how to thank her. Saying thank you will never be enough. Even though this isn't anything big like a car or a house or anything. But to me, to her.... it was already the best she could give me.

Really... Thank you mom, and Merry Christmas.
お母さん。。。。ほんとに。。。。ありがとうな。

Camera Dilemma?

If you look at the timestamps of most of my blog posts, you might realise that most of my blog posts would be done after 12:00a.m. I don't know whether this is normal, but I think it's because I usually only update my blog after I lie down on the bed and realise I can't sleep.


Anyway, Sorry, no pics yet, coz I haven't received the pics taken during our trip for a certain 'Someone', who's hard to get, and seems to have gone for a 'vacation' at the moment.


So, after coming back from the trip, what have I been doing? Frankly, nothing much, except eating leftover lamb chops for the last few days, replenishing my sleeping hours that I lost during the 3 days before and on the trip itself, and lastly boring myself once again with this laptop and wandering up and down my house (no, my house ain't big, but when you get bored to some extent.....)

And for the last 3 days, today counts too (it's past 12am), I've been busying myself with something new...... Hunting for Cameras..... erm well..... hunting using the internet.

It's been a long time I've wanted a camera, and I was always fickle whether should I get a Video Camera, or a Camera. Video, photo, video? photo? which?? Well, to explain why I like videos is too long a story for you to read, and to explain why photos are precious aren't needed.... but anyway, lately, I finally decided I'd get a Camera (for Photos I mean)

Knowing the person I am..... I ain't satisfied with the latest 10 Mega Pixel RM1,399 Sony DSC W-300 that everyone would want if they could afford (well, I wouldn't mind one if you gave it to me for free):





But then again, I craved for something MORE..... something more "at the heart of the image", something "like.no.other"...... So after a long full-time 1 day's hunt. I came down to 2 decisions.


01. Sony DSLR A350





02. Nikon DSLR D40X (2nd Hand from Norman)

Photo credit to Norman Chee @ normaron.blogspot.com


Am I going overboard?? Hmm, I hope not... I trust that my few years of consumer digital camera photography has given me enough experience to handle something new.... something that I could fully utilize it's ability. Even after going into BTech (my current studying course), I just can't seem to take my mind off Film and TV Production and it's related fields.....

Well, after yet ANOTHER full day's (today) of weighing the angels and demons within these 2 cameras..... I have still not yet come to a conclusion.

Anyway, I might be shopping around tomorrow to check out the prices for both cameras and future accessories that I might need. So much for today's post. I ought to get some sleep now.


お休みなさい

SOAR: the Motive behind the Motive

Before I say anything about the topic itself, I would just like to declare that this post is just a voice of my thought and opinions. Call me a critic, call me selfish, call me rude, whatever makes you happy, but I write this, just for those willing to realise, or those willing to read at the very least, to see what goes around in my mind.


SOAR Advisors, Student Orientation Advisory and Registration Advisors, so-called, were one of the first people I saw in Curtin. The first day of uni, they were the ones. The "Men in Black" you could call them, with their black shirts and pants, fitted with a tie to heighten the standard of their looks. Professionalism, was what it stamped in my mind.

The one and only purpose for the SOAR advisors, are to lead, to guide, to teach, and to advise students during the orientation. And after 1 week of my orientation, and another week of mixing around, I got to know more about what, and how SOARs were. And then, I decided.....


But why? A lot ask me, why I want to become a SOAR. In the interview, there was also this question, "Why do you want to become a SOAR advisor?". My answer to the interview, "To learn new stuff, new skills, socialize, get to know more people, and lastly, gain experience."

That wasn't, of course..... all of it......

There's always an ulterior motive to everything nowadays......



And back to the image that was imprinted by the 2 weeks orientation period.

What I saw was.... "SOAR...... what a beautiful name..... ", I thought. "But it's a pretty high name to live up to at the same time..." but then again.... ".... a bunch of people, wearing black, carrying the air of elegance around, but themselves radiating none."

And 1 week, that very 1 week, proved sufficient to analyze and see whether the SOARs lived up to their name.

Like I said before, the very first day I stepped into Curtin, the first people I see.... are these very SOARs. Speak of 'First Impression'. Yet, honestly speaking.... no harsh feelings.... but they were a letdown. The games, the activities, the handling, the leading.... the only thing I could see was a huge empty space, that had plenty of room for all of that to grow into, to expand, to improve.

Time keeping was somewhat befuddled; the games were desperately screaming for change and help; the group advisors themselves were walking on water..... not to mention with a croc below.....; the higher ups pointed fingers without knowing what and why they were pointing..... and more......


And so I thought, a person knows one's self best, and decided to be one of the 'Men in Black', to find out what lied behind the black clothings....

I wanted to bring about change. A change that would let the SOARs live up to what they are called. I don't know how, I don't know when, and I don't know why. It just makes me feel that I want to do this. It just makes me sick seeing such a beautiful name, given to people with so much opportunities..... and yet all used wastefully.

In things that I really AM interested and capable in..... I can say that I'm a perfectionist. I want everything to be perfect, or at the least, as close to perfect as possible. Maybe that is why.... seeing others who deperately could use help just makes me feel awful inside....

And that was my ulterior motive..... to reach into the roots, and carry out some sort of coup d'état to this current pathetic organization.

Well.... that is all I can say for now...... until I soar.....




Hmm.... the post turned out to be somewhat different than what I actually had in mind, but anyway, haha. Some might hate me maybe, haha, especially if any actual SOARs read this. But anyway.... please comment!!!


じゃあ。

Noone can be Everybody

Yo there, well, seems like bout 3 weeks I haven't been posting, haha, guess maybe it's cause I just got back from Miri and was a little caught up in KK, with all the food, friends, the internet, and all. But even after being away from KK for 4 whole months, maybe more...... nothing much changed, yet.... traffic jams all around, roads still repairing, prices still going up, good foods getting less.... so.... yea, I guess nothing much changed....

By the way, nothing much happened since the last week and more I've been back here, other than a couple of 'yam cha's, a few 'put off-ed' badminton meet-ups by those 'pilots'..... nothing much happening around yet, so I guess I won't have much to update you guys about until some activities come up.

Anyway, today's post might seem a bit boring, so if you guys decided you'd be better off using your time watching dumbass youtube vids of some nutcase rambling off some mumbo jumbo 101 photoshop tips in 5 minutes, you're better off clicking this link: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=h6flegTtolg


Well, for those of you think you want to continue........ so be it.


Have anyone of you ever thought of learning everything there was, everything you could? Me, being someone..... who wishes I could do everything, know anything..... I've always strove to take every chance I have to learn anything and everything I could. However, about a year ago, I think I started to get tired with all these..... I started to realise that I could never know anything and everything.... at least not in this limited time of life.

And the next thing I knew, I was hoping I could live an immortal, where I would have an infinite amount of time, to learn, do, experience, everything there was in this world, or universe maybe. (But that thought was later forgotten due to its impossibility)


Lately instead, I came to realise these things again. There were so many things I wished I could do. I see magic, I wanna do it; I see people dance, I wish I could dance like them; I see people playing the violin, I wish I'd learned the violin too. But nevertheless, these dreams soon faded as I came back down onto earth, reality. And then it spawned in my senses.

Humans, having such a short life remaining, estimating another average of 70 years for most of you that is, approximately another 613,200 hours...... or 2,207,520,000 seconds if you prefer it that way. Take 1/3 of the time away since you'll be huddling in your bed with your own drool most of that time.... that leaves 1,471,680,000 of seconds being awake......

Okay, cutting out all the crap, having such a short lifespan, I just feel that we shouldn't try to be everybody, get what I mean? Each of us are born different, everybody has their own specialties, what their good at, what they suck at. And being someone who only has less than 600 thousand hours of time awake, I don't think we have enough time to be everybody.

Just take the time, work on something you like, you treasure, and instead of working hard on something which isn't you, try doing something that you've always been wanting to do, go for it. You might not have a second chance. Pick something you love, for my example, I'll take magic, and work into it, and make the impossible happen (not talking about doing the impossible in magic lol). Everything is possible, thats what I believe, as long as you have the will. (except some stuff like flying and walking through a wall of course. Yes, you can fly..... one day maybe..... after a long long time..... in the mental hospital).

If you're gonna be anything, be yourself.
Noone can be Everybody.


Oops.... I guess I said a lot. Hope you appreciate the post anyway. See ya.