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Sunday, June 20, 2010

Pre-Exam Butterflies

It seems that each update of mine is taking longer and later than the previous post. Well, I can't help it I guess. Maybe I just suck at organising my time, or I'm just too busy with exams lately, and also a bit of Maple, and maybe a little bit of too much worrying.

Whenever each semester of mine here comes close to an end, my emotions run wild and I get weird mood swings from time to time, but no, it's not that time of the month, and I'm a guy.

It's just that someway, somehow, all my emotions usually pile up due so many things.... among them the nostalgia going back home sweet home, but at the same time I feel I'm gonna miss this boring yet peaceful place in miri... then sometimes I just wanna get over with all the exams, then again I don't wanna end everything and graduate just yet. Top it all up with exam stress, the fear of failure, along with my solitude behavior especially during these periods just make me wish that I could DISAPPEAR~!


Tomorrow is my final paper. Embedded Systems Engineering 301. And the bloody problem with it? Is it's an OPEN BOOK exam.

I once adored open book exams. I always admired the fact that some people could bring their whole textbook into examinations and were jealous of them being able to do so. I wish that one day I could try that as well. But that was last time.

The thing about Open Book Exams are, you have NO IDEA WHAT to STUDY! I've had 4 open book subjects up till today. And all I can recall is that everytime the night before the exam, I get all anxious and stressed up, not because I'm not prepared or whatever other reason. But because I just bloody CAN'T prepare~! Never have I ever had such a stressful exam before. This is seriously my first.

But even through so much stress and chaos going on in my mind, the exam will still come sooner or later, and time will pass without us having to wait for it. So I guess, enough ranting for today. I've gotta work hard for whatever unforeseeable future lies in front of me.

By Bert at 7:51 PM  

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03. Skydive. On my Own.
04. Throw a dart onto a world map, and travel to wherever it lands (if possible)
05. Learn a new skill from a friend.
06. Own a 4 acre piece of land.
07. Experience Jetlag.
08. Camp on my own land.
09. Learn not to say yes when you really mean no.
10. Write a novel about myself... or an autobiography.
11. Do something completely crazy and out of character.
12. Sit on the scariest roller coaster ride in the world.
13. Find a job I love.
14. Photograph an eclipse, both solar and lunar.
15. Learn to ride a horse.
16. Own a horse.
17. Go skinny dipping.
18. Throw a mega party!
19. Bury a treasure/time capsule.
20. Visit Antartica, or better yet, get a Job on Antartica, if possible.
21. Build something that will outlast myself.
22. Drive on the Autobahn.
23. Keep a daily diary for one whole year (in detail)
24. Dance in the pouring Rain.
25. Have my own photo studio.
26. Keep a pet (most likely a dog) watch it grow up, grow old, and pass on.
27. Make someone weak in the knees just by looking~
28. Climb one of the world's Seven Summits.
29. Bungee Jump.
30. Fall deeply in love - helplessly and unconditionally.
31. Own a BMW.
32. Win a lottery.
33. Walk the Great Wall of China.
34. Design my own house.
35. Learn Diving.
36. Hike up a Glacier.
37. See the Northen Lights.
36. Fold 1,000 origami paper cranes and give them to someone special.
37. Witness the Sunrise with a loved one.
38. Act and dress up like a tourist, and visit all the places in Sabah like I've never been there before.
39. Draw my own self-portrait.
40. Get a complete makeover, and probably might as well add a photoshoot.
41. Sleep under a starry sky.
42. Live through the 4 seasons of the year, Spring, Summer, Autumn, Winter
43. Learn Stunt/Professional Driving.
44. Watch a Meteor shower.
45. Walk into a restaurant and order the whole menu
46. Say "I quit." To a job I hate.
47. Seduce a straight guy.
48. Photograph the Milky Way.
49. Be at Sea for a Week.
50. Master Poker and Win BIG in a Casino.
51. Tell someone "I Love You", and mean it.
52. Test Drive a FERRARI!.
53. Ride a Hot Air Balloon.
54. Dive and see the Great Barrier Reef.
55. Make someone burst in tears of happiness.
56. Go nude for a week.
57. Learn to say "I'm sorry, it's my fault." Even when you're right.
58. Publish an article.
59. Learn to make a Fine Dish. Perfect it. Master it.
60. Learn Skiing, and go Heli-Skiing after that.
61. Visit one of the 7 Wonders of the World.
62. Perform a striptease.
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64. Sit on the World's Fastest Rollercoaster!!
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66. Get myself so drunk I don't remember anything.
67. Have plastic surgery.
68. Drive a car faster than 160km/h
69. Be in a warzone.
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71. Shoot a scoped rifle at a target 200 meters away. And HIT.
72. Learn a Self-Defense art. Thoroughly.
73. Take part in a motorsport.
74. Have a collection of soft toys.
75. Spend summer solstice above the Arctic Circle, and experience 24 hours of daylight.
76. Touch a Tiger.
77. Write a letter to my closest friends to tell them how much they mean to me.
78. Make a short film.
79. Listen to a Live Orchestra in a world-class theatre.
80. Go BASE jumping.
81. Make a pop up/out card and give it to somebody special.
82. Get a piercing.
83. Get a Tattoo.
84. Perfect my Japanese. And go to Japan to use it.
85. Build a 1km in diameter man-made island.
86. Spend 1 year getting my body in optimum shape, and keep it that way.
87. Look close into the eyes of someone I've just met, see myself, and smile.
88. Make love on the beach.
89. One day donate 10% of my wealth to charity.
90. Take an amazing portrait for someone.
91. Build myself a beach house.
92. Have something named after myself.
93. Watch the Launch of a Space Shuttle.
94. Visit a live volcano.
95. Join a Caravan in the Sahara Desert.
96. Go Rock-climbing.
97. Build a Giant Sandcastle.
98. Save a Life.
99. Disappear from Society for 6 months in attempt to complete as many goals on this list as possible.
100. Change the World.
101. Be happy with who I am.

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