It's a Mad World

Anyone here watched Donnie Darko before, heard its soundtrack "Mad World"? Or maybe you've heard "Mad World" by Adam Lambert? Well, you should listen to the original version though, if you haven't heard the original song before, "Mad World" by Gary Jules.

If you haven't heard it before, here's a download link ^^ : http://www.mediafire.com/?m2tgpghksmg

You could listen to the song while you read this, haha, might go well with the content I'm writing.

Don't listen to it too often though... you'll go crazy =)

Anyway, I'm introducing this song because... That's exactly how I feel right now. It's been a mad world for me these couple of weeks. Much much more crazy these couple of days, and maybe even more within the next few days/weeks.

If any of you have ever been to the verge of being crazy, you will somehow... somehow... know... a bit, of what it feels like to be crazy; you'll also come to realize why people actually choose to commit suicide; and what it feels like, to be pushed to the edge, all alone, like a cornered animal, angry, furious, enraged, but scared and afraid at the same time.

Life has been hectic.... busy.... and unmerciful at the same time. I'm pretty much mentally worn out day to day, but it's all thanks to myself.... me and my mind games... with this overpowering mind of mine that thinks of the most trivial things ever.

At times like this.... people usually say "I need some help...."... or "I need a break..." or... "I wish I could run away from all this!".... or "I should kill myself."

But me, because I've resolved myself that committing suicide is never something I'd do within my sane chain of thought, I have one wish right now. "I wish I can Disappear~!".... just.... to disappear, and never exist in this universe..... where nobody would look for you.... nothing for you to do... just to.... cease to exist.

But then again, I know that wish would never come true, so the next best thing I can do is "Screw this~"

 If only life were a Rubik's Cube that we could put down anytime we wanted.

This would be just what I might do.

- Screw Rubik's -

Sigh. I should get back to work.

Till the world gets madder....